So I am sitting here in Maui (husband is asleep), listening to the waves and thinking. I love this place because it is so peaceful and I don't have the everyday distractions of work and life. I'm trying to figure out my life. Big stuff huh?
Have you heard these sayings: square peg in a round hole, 2 is company-3 is a crowd, odd man out? What do they all have in common? They are summing up how I feel most days. I have felt this way for a very long time, I am always the odd man out. It is something I have struggled with. In my husbands family I am the sister-in-law who is never included, with my friends I am the only one without kids, at work I am the one who thought that working hard and playing by the rules would get me somewhere. I keep trying to be the square peg fitting in the round hole. I never can seem to find the square hole.
I guess there is no real point to this other than it was on my mind and I felt like getting it out. Back to vacation. If you need me I will be over here on the outside looking in.
2 comments:
FWIW, you're never the odd man out with me! I can relate to so many different things and on so many different levels with you. Also, you give me a great perspective of things from a step-parent side, which is greatly appreciated sometimes when I'm too close to the situtation.
Thinking of you this morning and hoping that you guys stay safe!! Mwuah. Love ya.
I feel that way a lot. Having a kid doesn't even make you feel in touch with the parents with kids necessarily. I'm always willing to talk though and do stuff. You aren't out in my book!
I hope you are staying safe.
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