8 days until Maui

Yes, can you see the ticker above??? That's right folks I leave for Maui in 8 days, one week from tomorrow. I won't actually be in Maui until Monday the 9th because we have an overnight layover in Seattle but I still leave in 8 days. I'm so stinking excited I can barely stand it.

Have I mentioned the constant warmth, the beach, the tropical fruity drinks, the warmth, the sun, laying out in the sun, the smell of suntan lotion, falling asleep to the sound of the waves hitting the beach, the gorgeous sunsets, watching the whales?

I may have mentioned those things once or twice. Yes, yes, I know I am bragging. Sue me.

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One of those days

Do you ever have those days where you question everything you have ever done? I am having one of those days. I sit here and look back on my life and I second guess every decision I have ever made. I think about what I could have done differently, what I should have done differently and wonder if I had done those things would my life be different. I know that this behavior is not productive but right now I am caught up in a crappy cycle of self doubt, self loathing and insecurity.

My insecurities are getting the best of me lately. I can't shake the feeling that everyone is going to leave me, espicially my husband. Not quite sure where this comes from other than past relationship failures and just more overall insecurities.

I think about all of the friendships I have let slide over the years and then feel bad because I really don't have any real close friendships. I don't really feel like I can call anyone up and whine and cry about how I feel so I do it here. My anxieties get the best of me and I shut down, I isolate myself, I lash out at my husband and try to test him to see if he will run. I don't know how he has put up with me this far.

I hate these craptastic days.

Random musing

So, my work blocked "personal and social networking" sites recently. This meant no facebook, no MSN message boards and no Blogspot. I was devestated. What would I possibly do at work now that I could not access these sites? Work? Surely I could not be expected to work during business hours??? But, I did work. I was actually quite productive. Shocking, I know.

I was all upset that I could not get on this site. I had all of these great things that I was going to post about. You know, big things, insightful and funny things. Somehow I am able to access this site today. I'm sure it won't last but hey, I will take what I can get. So, where are these big, insightful, funny posts you ask? I have no clue. I'm totally drawing a blank.

UGH!

25 Million dollars

What is that amount you ask? That is the amount of money that Manny Ramirez was offered by the LA Dodgers to renew his baseball contract for ONE year.

He turned it down!!!!!!!!!!

What, 25 mil is not enough to play ball for ONE year?????? I am stunned.